fewer and farther between, but I'm still here!

This whole entire month has been very hectic. Angi and I have done nothing for the past three weeks but prepare for our Halloween costume party, which has just topped 30 guests! But what the hell, it's going to be a blast. We have a live band (in our apartment!) and fog machines, tons of decorations, a bartender, and the list go on and on and on. I did manage to find a couple of moments of Zen in all the chaos. When I did they were literally 2 or 3 seconds long, my mind went blank and "soft". It is really hard to explain adequately, but in that 3 seconds of Zen it occurred to me it wasn't the amount of time that mattered. It was just the simple process of complete blankness that made the entire day perfect. Easy and laid back. I sighed a deep sigh and smiled and my brain "clicked back on" but in such a calm way that my driving slowed (yes I was driving at the time), I leaned back a bit more and just drove on. Ah, for more moments such as that.